For those who have grown tired of my lack of updates, you're in for a treat. I've had my convocation/graduation and I'm proud to say I've never been prouder of myself. It's surreal the experience. I've dreamed of walking up the stage with a whole lot of distinguished looking people in funny caps and cloaks (imagine the scene from Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone where Harry walks in to the Great Hall and sees all the professors up on their seats) looking at you while you make your way over to the Chancellor (who in my case looks an awful lot like Dumbledore- sans the skinny frame) to shake hands (in my case, a few choice sentences as well) and take a photo with he-who-has-twinkly-blue-eyes and the much slogged over degree.
The process is one I'd gladly do all over again, even if it means doing another degree. The feeling is priceless. One sentence- "it's good to see you" took me aback. I wouldn't have thought he'd remember or even recognise me after a whole year has elapse. But looking into those blue eyes, other memories flooded in. Memories of another pair of bluish-green eyes that were yearning to be present to watch his best friend get her degree. I remembered you through the process, right from putting on the cloak to finally walking out of the conference hall. The bestest best friend's presence on that special day made it all the more memorable. I can't help but keep looking at the pictures. Each picture is filled with so much pride, delight and love that just gazing at them makes my heart sing.
One hurdle in life has been crossed. I want to take time off to think things through and plan what to do from there but external pressures don't seem to be very understanding, leaving me exasperated and lost. I want, need a break. A few months of not doing anything, not worrying about trying clients or job hunting or school searching or whatevs it is that comes at this juncture in life. I've proved myself to people that I usually wouldn't even bother about- the same people that can't even send a text or ring me up to say 'congratulations'. The jealousy shows through, even if their fake smiles try to hide it.
For all the amazing people that have helped me through this degree, here's many thanks and much love.
I love getting the biggest handmade bouquet of the day courtesy of mummy and daddy dearest. :D