Distraction d'inspirational

Woweeee. Just finished settling the PR stuff that needs to be done for the press conference (which took a whole of 3 hours worth of emails to send, save, reply to, mull over and organise), pheew! Off to work on the PR blog and do the readings for tomorrow's journalism class then check to see if the boy has sent the media release back to me after inserting his quote, pondering over something intellectual and corporate to 'say' for the CEO's quote at the 'about' section of the media kit and working on the blasted script. The emphasis on the importance of my script and deliverance is terrifying me. I know I'm supposed to put up a brave front for the team but they don't seem affected or stressed in anyway. In fact, some of them are telling me not to stress but when the rest don't stress, I stress cos it appears to be that they don't care.

I was pretty agitated and disappointed with a team member's behaviour today. She had total disregard for me, the lecturer and the rest of her team mates. I've told her time and time again, concentrate on what's more important- the outline of what you're to tell RC when he comes around asking for the panelists topics. I asked DE and NY and they both complied by thinking about it and writing (DE) or typing (NY) their points down. Why couldn't my remaining panelist do that? I know she's a perfectionist but this is a prototype, something that is supposed to contain small mistakes, and will only be shown for a short while. I'm a strong believer of respect being both ways. If I lose my respect for someone, it's uber hard to get back. I felt disrespected as a leader today, and from a close friend no less. Dealing with EDS has tested my patience enough. I dealt with her while the group looked on. I didn't say anything. But when I need back-up, it's not given. I'm such a charger, I should take the back seat more.

I'm doing this for you, holding on for you and you let me do everything. Your words are not enough anymore.

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