Lets see... Oh, I've been terribly pleased with my blog entries since the hiatus. Seems like when I falter with the words meant for assignments, the words spill abundantly onto my blog instead. At a point where I have to make a lot of life choices and I'm still undecided. I knew what I wanted to work as and I've worked my way up to this point so far. But the journey doesn't end here. I've still got more to do, see, feel, hear and taste.. but that feeling in incompleteness refuses to leave me. I know what that feeling represents but I'm not willing to acknowledge it anymore cos it's just annoying and painful. There's this 'thing' about me that naturally gets people to associate me with another person? Like I was with Ben and MB the other day and since Ben and I were glancing at each other every time that 'pink horse' fella (he was piss drunk and clumsy) made a weird comment or something and after a while, the guy rounded on me and asked for a snuggle. Like ewww. And he actually had the gall to later tell Ben "I'm assuming she's (points to me) your girlfriend". And just the day before, I was with DR and a friend of mine saw us and said "you've got a cute boy there!" and then a few weeks ago, three different groups of friends saw DDE and myself walking in the train stations and when we were seated and talking and they were all a-gush about my "new looker". Sigh.
No one believes me when I say I'm single, hell if you were to tell me I'd be single for the past 6 years, I'd have fallen off my chair laughing- at you. The way life turns out. I know I've been told that good things come to those who wait, but what if I'm done waiting and that good thing passes me by? Then what's the point. I know "when you feel like giving up on someone, remember why you held on for so long". But it's just so... beyond me? Like I've finally realised this is all out of my hands already. He seems to have made his choice, I'm sticking to mine. I'm not giving up, just giving in.