I made up my mind the first few times we spoke that I'll be your unofficial protector. I know you don't need one constantly, but I want the best for you.. and for my own selfish reasons, I want you to get what I don't seem to be able to attain.
When you broke the news to us, I sat stunned. Even after I saw it coming, and I literally saw it coming. It was so overwhelming, I was able to weep internally. The withdrawal hurts. What hurts more is that you don't tell us much. And push us away. I understand not wanting to reveal but for those who care, it hurts being held in the dark.
You will be missed greatly, I think you know that by now.