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Wednesday, 13 May 2009 9:26 pm
seeing through my eyes.

I've not been one to purposefully direct anyone's thoughts or actions. I've not realised how instrumental I have been in the formation of lives around me and how influential I am without intending to be. I just work with what God has given me and where I have been placed to do what is required of me. Is that so bad?

When I say or do things, its after thought and self censorship for I am aware of what harsh and unthought words can do to another, even if you do not directly see or hear it. I have always worn a mask when it comes to my feelings for I believe it is these feelings that give away your inner most thoughts. Self- preservation is an in-built tool that has to be maintained well- oiled and WD-40ed if necessary.

I am also not at fault when I see right through people and their intentions. This has been honed over time. I do not think of it as a blessing nor a curse, but I only know what I sense and what I feel is mine alone to see. If I share, its because I care, not because I dare.

I cannot be held accountable and will not allow anyone else to hold me accountable for independent decisions made by themselves for themselves or others. By society's decree, I am allowed my right of personal expression and freedom. But always bearing in mind.. being endowed does not make you entitled.
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