What started off as a trip back to the sunny island to reminisce the good times went horribly wrong when everything got short circuited and ended up turning out to be a 180 instead. There was a cold front coming in.. and I didnt even see it coming. For starters, the girl and I got drenched, had to hide behind the feeble and easily collapsable fortress of our measly umbrellas and were heroically persuaded to be freed from our wet misery and sheltered by a guy and his huge green towel. This is a true story.
Bumped into the ex on the way back to the mainland. It got me thinking if I was headed for a premature collision course for the rest of the day. Had lunch with Elroy and the chica at Thai Express where I had my piece of the Carribean and met up with that dear friend I missed terribly but had to eventually end up struggling to even get a proper footing in the conversation. I feel tons better after the rain that forced the opportune moment upon us to talk things out.
Had B&Js after that. It had been ages since I had B&Js and it was kind of a sobering moment. The last time I had B&Js was with Jees and Shahul. Thinking about it now has gotten me all choked up again. He's torn apart and I'm struggling not knowing if she's alright. Whenever I think back about those times when I told Jees I'd always be there for him if she weren't, I never thought that day would come so soon and with so much heartache. I miss Berjees- alot.
Had some time to talk to the Scot about all that's happened and I found myself slipping back to my usual candor with him. I guess steeling myself against him was not a good choice. I'm just glad I've got my best friend back... and all the other confusion in between has been clarified. I'm also not boring like that idiot says I am but prioritise instead. "You're just prioritising... if I was in school, I'd be doing the same too." Those simple words put a month's worth of worries to rest. Simplicity in a friendship at its best. For those that are interested, I'm not boring because I don't go out as often and read but because I chose to do more valuable things with my life- like spend it with family, friends (that actually care) and things that mean more to me than one person's constant badger just because they're bored with their life. I can't believe I didn't see it earlier... especially since I'm rather astute with these kinda things.
Here goes the inevitable rant: I've put up with nonsense and your snarky put-me-downs. Even though I tolerated them out of sheer will and patience, there's a limit for everything. I'm putting my foot down and along with that, the end of testing my patience. You've gone way to far and pushed way to hard. I've never been the type to doubt myself and my actions and to start infringing on that bit of me has me in an uproar. Hear this roar now, I'm NOT boring and I think you might wanna go shower your pretty words on some misbegone, naive and unassured girl who is in need of your constant flattery and pathetic attempts to worm your way into her heart. I just wish I could have formulated this when I've spent countless times with you on the phone trying to make you see reason. 3 days and counting and I'm enjoying my silence thank you very much.
Overall, I had a whale of a good time, pun intended. Even got a free notebook! What's not to like. For those confused, pictures will be up soon. Either here or on Facebook. (: