I'm treasuring today for this day can never be replaced.
Its more than magnetism-- its the uncontrollable thrum in my blood knowing that the day's going to be incredible. I do get my foot stepped on twice by this giant of a woman in high-heeled court shoes (btw, I've got multiple hairline fractures on my left foot now.) Almost being late for class didn't help so there I go, stomping to A101- the absolute furthest class. Guess who smiles in greeting at me at the door wearing the image of what i'm wearing? He disappears and I think I can sneak in but instead I'm greeted with a cheerful "Good morning" and smile and for all the pain I'm in, I grin neurotically. 46 slides to get through and my foot's throbbing. I'm just focussing- on the "I just can't spell today!"s and one-legged Q&As. I also get my assed slapped by no one else with a thrown in comment that its perky...in front of the wrong party again. impeccable timing I must say. I fumble for words and get the register to sign before packing and attempting to leave before realising i've to clarify the "color thingy.. does it have to be labelled?" DOn't understand? Neither did the listener. He goes "Whaaa?" I take a deep breath and repeat such that its comprehendable and he gives an answer. I also apologise for the crazy emails and he shockingly asks to keep them coming cos at least someone's got questions. Looks like that offer wasn't taken up much...
Lunch was hard to stomach and I miss TGIF. Not that it mattered cos there wasn't a performance I wanted to watch. Nat's on a high cos I have to be on a high. She succeeds. I catch on. I spurt out water like a fountain cos she makes me laugh and I realise I've got an audience member grinning away. Utter humiliation. Its then that I realise that we're human, and I was the designated decoy to provide the day's entertainment. I pluck up the courage and ask if the assignment could be handed in the way I'd done it,he looks, checks and approves. I'd willingly sign over MY life unlike Nat. I was totally caught off-guard (and a lil spooked) when he yelps "MINEEEEEE!" and clutches it to his chest when I hand in my assignment. I hope he realised what he was getting into when he said "I'll definitely enjoy this after I'm done with 52 of these.." LOL! Of course I'd be yelliing his name in desperate need if SOMEONE didn't mention to him that I was asking HER all the questions I should be asking him.. Thanks alot, babe. Now you made him feel bad so much so that he went "Awwww! Ask ME the questions, I'm here to help.."
After a while, the goddess realises her hair is in a mess and we exit stage left to the ladies. And the first time I get out of tutorial, my lecturer grins at me when he sees me standing at the entrance to the gents/ladies washroom staring out with the look that I was cutting class. After repeatedly calling him for HELP!! (N.B: not 'help' but 'HELP!!') he just walks over and plunks down next to me and we manage intertangled arms. ohgawd. Oh, this is a funny convie, embarassing, yes, but i'm over and done with the humiliation.
Me: It sounds awful.
Him: Can't be that bad. Could I have a listen?
Me: Sure. Knock yourself out.
Him: Could you hit 'play'?
Me: Alright. . Er.. where't the play? (He gestured earlier to the keyboard so I had to look there)
Him: The spacebar! Shouldn't you know this by now??
Me: Yeahhhhh.. Sureeeee. (face flames red)
(Listens and screws up his face after a while) My heart plummets.
He gives suggestions and under his scrutiny, amend it.
Dear reader, as this blog also serves as a journal of some sort since my life's pretty much written as it is, i'd suggest a break of some sort. The post has not yet ended.
The random bits of convies I remember are coming up.
1. Him: Do you guys like listening to dance music like techno or trance music?
Us: (throw in bunch of comments.) I 1/3 shrug, 1/3 nod,1/3 scrunch up my face.
Him: (looks thoughtful)
2. Him: Do you guys sing? Perform for TGIF?
(Since he's looking my way, I just shake my head)
He continues by asking
Him: I was supposed to perform today but I was late. I'll be performing next Friday though... If you wanna see me perform
real badly....."
(It didn't help that he was looking straight at me.... does he know? oh no! But I'd kill. Ya'll know I will. You know where I'll be friday.)
Other interesting conbvies but you gotta be in the situation to get the gist..
Oh, Nat had her fair share of situations but none as major as my fountain apparently. As we packed up for the day, he tells us to have a great weekend and to be good. We turn around and duly tell him to be good too and he retorts with a "I'll try!" So will we.
Ha! As Nat and I get into the elevator, he comes sauntering in with the excuse that even though its only one floor down, he was being lazy. Hardly. He's had to put up with me for the day. He must be just as exhausted as Nat! Anyway, something had been niggling at me so I pick up the nerve (been doing that alot recently..) and ask him:
Me: Did I by any chance in one of my emails mention my color coordinates for the day?
Him: Naww... (realises the mirror image and smiles.")
Me: (pointing to the obvious)
Him: Haha! We must have great minds.. we think alike!
Me: Yeah.. great fashion sense too...
Nat: Hey! Not fair!
Us: HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA!
He says something but by this point my brain shuts down from the overflow of the day and everything got stored and has yet to be processed and regurgitated. I went home smiling to myself on the train and laughing at random things that trigger off memories.
I'm hopelessly done waiting to be loved.