I'm in love with his voice, his soul and his eyes.
I've never felt such a wierd current.. a vibe that's so real it seems impossible. How do such extremeties get in the way of such ingrained habits that I resent yet seem 'oh-so-alright' all of a sudden? It can't possibly be age. I'm still young enough. Lonliness? I've had this discussion one too many a time with myself and I still come up with the same conclusion. Its time I stopped safeguarding myself and just leap in and enjoy everything life and God has to offer, to soak it all up and make full use of every situation- good, bad and ugly cos in all these imperfection, lies the secret to fulfillment.
His songs are magical. They make me hum with excitement, want to breathe in a fresh gulp of air and hold on to the sight of his penetrative gaze and know that we're connecting on that plane where our thoughts are merging, mingling and creating new abbreviations from the ones i've arrived at. What is it that gives him the power to touch my soul, wrung dry from many dabacles past, and yet soothe it like a salve that makes me just wanna reach out and touch him? I've been listening, addicted and mesmerised.
Even with the prescence of another who's recently claimed my heart for his own, I feel and think of only him. The one who makes my blood sing, yet holds me back with so much ferocity that I'm afraid-afraid of breaking that boundary.. and the time. The time. 4 months. I need him more..oh so much more.