Growing up with the too-good mentality has given me a lil shake-up.
As for that boy, well, things are starting out slow. I've realised growing up the way I've been raised has been a privilege for me. I'm not gonna change it just so I can blend in and make you feel all comfortable. So stop trying to make me feel all guilty cos I'm sick of it.
Has everything I've worked for thus been a waste of money, time, peace of mind etc?
Lets just say I'm glad I'm sticking to meditation and HDG cos without Him and DSG in my life at this critical point, I'd prolly have abandoned all hope. I regrett when I've not meditated and that feeling of imcompleteness that overwhelms me is phenomenal. To think all it took was a stare from Mr Ambi and the push from N. I know HDG will help me through.
How have the hols been so far?
Pretty awesome. Shopping, going for RPT meetings, meeting up with friends, more shopping, splurging and dallying in indulgences, learning how to scope out possibly dreadful circumstances and learning how to be a better person. There's of course the movies. Wanted was awesome. Possibly gonna watch either 21 or Hancock with N today. Gonna pray even harder that my mom doesn't get all suspicious on me and cut my outing with him short again. Pls DSG, please!
Why do we segregate those we love because of tumultous relationships that aren't our doing?
Considering how relatives are relatively pains-in-the-asses at times, I say the most recent is the most embarassing event yet and I've realised that since I'm older and more forgiving, I'm gonna put all the problems aside and let people stinge, grieve, sully names, be adament, preachy, uncharacteristically mean, simply bitchy and even to the extent of deadly, then so be it. I'm protected. Give it your best shot.
I've got alot more questions but I'll save them for my next entry. Life's full out questions but will these questions bear fruit?