There's another part to this story. I'm feeling very irritated with the level of childishness and hypocrassy of it all. Perhaps I mature at an exponential rate that such trivial matters seem unimportant and to a certain extent a total waste of time and saliva. I'm not gonna get pulled in again. I promise myself that. I'm also learning to accept that I wasn't made to blend in but to stand out. And that's what I'm gonna keep doing. I'd appreciate it if those are trying to keep up with me, to stop. I'm selective with my friends, I'm picky with my clothes, I'm unique and pride myself for it, I don't tell you something if I don't wanna tell you- stop trying to squeeze it out of me.
I've had enough of getting annoyed at your behaviour. People are noticing and I hate having to defend you. I also start venting about you which I dislike. But its something that's a constant thorn at my side. I'm human, I have the feelings of venting too and one fine day, you're gonna hear the full story and you're not gonna like it. I'm clueless as to how to tell you without hurting you but I'm working at it. For now, I think its best I keep my distance. For those who know who I'm talking about, you'll bring this secret with you to your respective graves.
For the rest, my apologies if in someway in the future if I annoy you guys. I'm not having a good time and there may be moments when I'll be in dire need of having someone to talk to- my humble request is that you try your best to be there for me when you're needed the most. I honestly wish all this will end soon so I can go back to being unbothered and free. Pls God, help Thy child.