Distraction d'inspirational

This is a bit much. Its also starting to become a day late and a dollar short. A little bird, actually many lil birds have told me I'm one of those rolling stones that gather no moss unlike the rest that are about as useful as a chocolate teapot. That's an A1 deduction I must say. I use this as an abject lesson. As far as I'm concerned, I may be in certain aspects be WAY ahead of the pack so that's not troubling me. And here everyone was thinking we were alike as two peas. Wait till all hell breaks loose. I've been told "its all in your head". I'm gonna severly heed the advice. You're all over the place, whereas I'm not. Apt at attaining my goal. Not gonna waver anymore. I'm honestly at wits ends and deeplyregretful I hadn't kept at arm's length. I'm not going to be in a situation where we're at each others throats cos I care too much. I still do. Be that it may be. I was between the devil and the deep blue sea but not anymore. Its all crystal clear. I still wish everything bared is between you and me and the cat's whiskers. I'm left with a bleeding heart after all this. I'm not gonna blow my stack. I'm not the sort. I'm just the type to burn the candle at both ends. Don't bury your head in the sand. Look around you to see the damage you do and remain accountable for it. Now I realise we may be like chalk and cheese. Curate's egg in-the-making perhaps? By hook or by crook, I'm gonna bury the hatchet.

I bared my heart too early in the game.

I thought the world of you. I still do but not as great as it used to be. You played with my heart and now that the broken pieces are slowly mended, I beg you don't add fuel to fire, insult to injury. I won't be able to withstand it. I was after your heart but I'm gonna stop. I see everything in new light now. I'm no fool. I never was, but when it came to you, I became one. I went against the grain and it was worth it, it still is. But that's the first and the last. You know my Archilles heel inside and out. I still have endearing love for you and will always but not in the old way. You're just too darn irresistable and I can't keep pretending everything is okay when its getting harder. Too hard. I love you for the way you love me. I always will. I know it may be a classic case of wrong time wrong place, but its the same people that we were. What you see is what you get. I've never floundered when I knew I had your hand to hold, or cling on to you when you carried me. My parents think so too. You've etched a place in their heart. It'll stay there for a long time to come, I'm sure. Whatever may come your way, I know you'll bite the bullet and succeed. Our late night chats are enough for me to know your aspirations will come true. You're that determined. I will see you in what you told me I will see you in when you come back. I'll be waiting. I know you keep to your words. I'll be waiting. Always.

Sharmi went through idioms so I'm paying homage to her lecturing. I indeed was paying attention. Even in the last hour when I was slumped on the table cos the painkillers were getting to me. The pain was unbearable. Yeah, yeah. I know. I wasn't in school. Had e-tutoring... LOL. I'm not gonna get AJ pissed anymore. I promise. Any other days I'm gonna be orderd to stay home??

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